Re-Edited: Legacy of Paleface Wannabe/PretendIndian Dumbfuckery

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Between 1982 and well into the early 1990’s  in the Portland Metropolitan area and on into various road trips in Oregon, Washington, and Idaho, shortly after my parents divorced in 1980,  my father, despite of this direct bloodline heritage from Switzerland as one of those Anabaptists who defied the State Church

took to emulating and participating in American Indian Powows, Inipi Sweat lodge Ceremonies, and Sundance ceremonies. A lot of this great revival of American Indian Spirituality was inspired by Oglala Lakota Medicine Man Martin Highbear, of whom to this day I am still feeling a lot of awe at and respect. Martin’s Legacy is legendary.

Here’s a tribute video link about Martin Highbear

https://vimeo.com/85475084  

There was another elder American Indian at the time, who I believe may have been  Oglala Lakota too married to a White German Woman, who went by the name of “Brave Buffalo” a.k.a.“Papason” who was highly respected too.  Brave Buffalo hosted the very first sweat lodge ceremony I ever attended near the Siletz Indian Reservation.  I was about 11 my brother barely 7 or 8 where even though it got very hot, I stayed and endured for all 4 rounds, and never had a better experience in a sweat lodge. My brother started crying like a baby and had to leave early.

My problems with Oglala Lakota American Indian Spirituality groups and interactions has nothing to do with those 2 long ago deceased revered Elders (Martin and Brave Buffalo “Papason”)  and their teachings  promoting Oglala Lakota and American Indian Spirituality. 

Rather, Those elders were not  involved in Baby Boomer White wannabe libtard PretendIndians blindly following babyboomer AIM-ster Gangsters.  These bizaar interracial partnerships  were often weird business relationships and were proverbial “strange bedfellows.”   

The White libtards & White “reformed” addicts & demoralized divorcees had their true white European identities crushed long ago before going into that partnership, so some  blindly following crutch buddy American Indian Spiritualists. Such was the likes of the kind of shady partnership my Father had with Pete L. Mesteth.    I can’t imagine this clinging & crutch buddy relationship or alliance as true American Indian Spirituality.

Pete L. Mesteth:  Marine Corp Veteran during the last part of the Vietnam conflict Evacuation of Cambodia and / or Vietnam in 1975 (not sure which)

 

was a Full blooded American Indian Oglala Lakota Sioux  straight from Pine Ridge Reservation of South Dakota. Pete’s ancestral homeland is the same as Russel Means’s.  The rightful Oglala Lakota Homelands were robbed by our U.S. Government.  This was was brutally cruel.

The sad story of how the Oglala Lakota peoples were cruelly betrayed really pulls at the heart strings.

Here is Pete’s brother Wilmer Mesteth describing the conflict:

 

, but is no excuse for playing and being predator on a a naive low income blue collared guilt fueled sympathetic white man already  criminally negligent to his own son, to continue criminal negligence.

 

Undoubtably a lot of Pete’s  relatives were there in the heart of the A.I.M. conflict of the 1970’s.   Pete L. Mesteth: has been dead since 2006 most likely from Diabetes (common affliction among American Indians in malnourished Reservations), but in 1985 was totally playing my  duped gullible Father like an absolute fiddle.

With  a heavy heart, words cannot describe the abject shame of discovering Pete was playing my father as a complete inverted Tonto monkey on Pete’s manipulative  vindictive leash.  Perhaps Pete thought he was  having revenge against the cruel whitie duping a naïve undeserving whitie who had nothing to do with Buffalo massacres or American Indian Persecution?

(Dad is most likely completely  full blooded whitie directly descended from Swiss Mennonite immigrants who were pacifists living in Ohio)

Pete L. Mesteth (the other Pine-apple Face) (Pine Ridge “apple” & Pinapple Face for the Manuel Noriega kind of resemblence seems appropriate)  was very likely 1 pissed off descendent and close relative of the Wounded Knee Massacre Survivors,  the Battle of Little Bighorn Warriors,  and relatives of the great reign of terror that went on at Pine Ridge reservation shortly after the Wounded Knee Stand off in 1973 with Russell Means and others.

Pete played my father like the stupid fucking white man that he was at the time.  I have little reason to doubt Pete was some sort of runaway AIMster gangster great resistance fighter against what he perceived to be the irredeemable Whitie.  “Fuck whitie power that shouldn’t be”  revenge went a little too far in this situation.

Pete Played my Dad as a ridiculous dorky dipshit dumb fucking mindless clueless monkey mindfuck that he was at the time.

After the first Divorce of my Mother in 1980 my Dad depreciated into some kind of bizarre total loss of identity until he pretty much hallucinated he was an American Indian in 1985.  He was singing and drumming the PowWow circuit badly singing Lakota Oglala Songs and talking in an accent like a reservation Injun denying his own White European heritage.

Dad was played as a Washishi paleface preTendian singing and drumming at PowWows totally disrespecting his own ex-Wife’s and biological children’s claims of Apache Heritage of the Southwest.

My days and weekends at Sherwood intermediate school (mid 1985 through 1986)  really sucked when Dad was consistently gone every weekend and I felt nothing but awkwardness between the harassing snobby yuppy spoiled preppy punks there and the clique of Stoner Metalhead pot smokers of blue collared working class I trended towards.  Words can’t describe the insane bullying and condescension that went down as an adolescent by all my peers at that shithole town of Sherwood, Oregon.

I wouldn’t put it past the Apache people to call the likes of my father  “The White eyes” for being blind.  He was  a Wannabie bitchmonkey Libtard fool.  My own Father was played as a fool and pissed a lot of money to old Pete in bizaar twisted sympathy.  He  cosigned Pete’s loans and debts.  Most likely my dad was blackmailed through lust for Pete’s sister Stephanie Mesteth (d.o.b. 1970),  (jailbait tramp at the time) when she was invited into that Apartment complex in Sherwood Oregon 780 Gleneagle Drive #15  in November of 1985 when my Father was 36 years old.  I have no doubt he was at the very least preening after Stephanie in delusion.  Did Stephanie fuck my Dad? I wouldn’t put it past her, given some of her attempts to seduce me when I was 14 and she was 15.  I do not know for certain, but my mother had no shame pressing him and when I confronted him in 1990 after my parents remarried about whether he did or not he said: “I was feeling pretty desperate at the time”

My Father repeatedly was given a nickname by Pete L. Mesteth as “Bahai John”   (most likely slang for duped prostitute client most likely )  because he really was hoodwinked with the jailbait hebophile / Lolita fetish predeliction addiction.   A 36 year old divorcee man should not be pursuing a 15 year old woman.

Perhaps Dad thought he was gonna get himself some little cute servile Squaw and live in a Teepee  like he was Jeremiah Johnson? or some bullshit fantasy that he was doing the American Indians a great favor as their Sugar Daddy “John”?

Words cannot describe the mixed messages of knowing of my Father’s full blooded Swiss-German Mennonite heritage and doing a Year of Service at the Bahai World Center as Gardens Helper in Haifa, Israel 1990 & 1991 with a Swiss Citizen as my Foreman who was born on the  exact same day as my Father in Switzerland 30th November 1949 where I enjoyed helping make compost every day an easy stone throw away from the Tombs of “The Greatest Holy Leaf”, “The Purest Branch” and Baha’u’llah’s Wife,

SEE THIS https://youtu.be/y2yJ6wZyJrQ at 1:22:00 time stamp

 

 

only to return to the stark contrast of Oregon in 1991 to discover all that effort seemed good for nothing as far as my indifferent Dad was concerned and that the great re-marriage of Mom & Dad was deterioriating back into the  great expedient farce and mockery of Bahai principles of family unity.    Their marriage had relapsed into the Dad being the television zombie dufus dumbfuck blindly following Pete  L. Mesteth again as a dorky white man PowWow dummer  who was always clueless, indifferent, and oblivious to the fact that I was molested as a child way back or that it was Dad’s responsibility to prevent child molestation, or forbid his own 6 through 10 year old son from being enticed.   Even if Dad had known I was molested,  his attitude was such to blame me for the pedophile grooming Keith Ronald Moore had done to me years starting at age 6 through 10, as Dad was still totally disrespecting my efforts at age 20  to serve Baha’u’llah and do my best following in the footsteps of whatever true harmonious American Indian Spirituality in harmony with nature and Mother  Earth as much as I possibly could.

Does anyone know the kind of anguish of stark contrast mixed messages of support  & abandonment?

I was trying to follow in the footsteps of   Richard Saint Barbe Baker, who Shoghi Effendi had praised, and pursue and eventually complete a Bachelor of Science degree in Forest Management at Oregon State University, heading these statement:

2.2.5 Importance of Agriculture

 

Bahá’u’lláh states that “Special regard must be paid to agriculture.”[78] He characterizes it as an activity which is “conducive to the advancement of mankind and to the reconstruction of the world”.[79] ‘Abdu’l-Bahá asserts that The fundamental basis of the community is agriculture,- -tillage of the soil….[80]

 

He describes agriculture as “a noble science”[81] whose practice is an “act of worship”,[82] and He encourages both women and men to engage in “agricultural sciences”.[83] He indicates that should an individual “become proficient in this field, he will become a means of providing for the comfort of untold numbers of people”.[84]

 In relation to the economic and social development of the nations, the Universal House of Justice underlines the importance of “agriculture and the preservation of the ecological balance of the world”.[85]  82 

       (Compilations, The Compilation of Compilations vol. I, p. 81

 

AND I was also heeding this  statement trying to respect the fact that my Dad was overworked underpaid hardworking slave tool to his career as a good family provider breathing toxic industrial toxic paint as a maintenance painter for the city of Portland 50 hours a week day in and out.   That is hard work that most likely causes braindamage and mental retardation.

The mad stubborn indifference to my suffering was something he never cared to change about himself soon enough perhaps because he was too traumatized with his own vicious shame and addiction  being a Television Zombie after each and every day after a hard day of exhausting work?

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‘Abdu’l-Bahá wishes a sin covering eye and conceals the people’s faults as far as possible; for he considers himself incapable and deficient in the Servitude of the Lord. Therefore, being engaged in his own short-comings, he does not care about the sins of others, but always asks remission and forgiveness for them, and seeks bounty and grace in their behalf.

 

            (SOW – Star of the West, Star of the West –  2)

 

I WAS trying desperately to “forgive and forget” and suppress the shame and stigma of the abuse done to me as child by stupid  criminally negligent pedophile enabling and pedophile denying parents.

“In relation to the economic and social development of the nations, the Universal House of Justice underlines the importance of “agriculture and the preservation of the ecological balance of the world”.[85]  82

 

            (Compilations, The Compilation of Compilations vol. I, p. 81)”

 

2.2.5 Importance of Agriculture

 

Bahá’u’lláh states that “Special regard must be paid to agriculture.”[78] He characterizes it as an activity which is “conducive to the advancement of mankind and to the reconstruction of the world”.[79] ‘Abdu’l-Bahá asserts that The fundamental basis of the community is agriculture,- -tillage of the soil….[80]

 

He describes agriculture as “a noble science”[81] whose practice is an “act of worship”,[82] and He encourages both women and men to engage in “agricultural sciences”.[83] He indicates that should an individual “become proficient in this field, he will become a means of providing for the comfort of untold numbers of people”.[84]

 

In relation to the economic and social development of the nations, the Universal House of Justice underlines the importance of “agriculture and the preservation of the ecological balance of the world”.[85]  82 

 

            (Compilations, The Compilation of Compilations vol. I, p. 

God only knows the weird kind of carrot of hollow opportunities dangled at going to School at a University at Oregon State University seeking and pursuing and actually being sort of  successful with a  witty Career  on a shoe string budget, trying to do what Baha’u’llah wants with half ass support from my parents dangling a carrot towards a Degree in Forest  Management for the love of Baha’u’llah and Agriculture between 1991 and 1995,.

Contrast all that mixed messages to work toward goals and noble aspiration of being a Good Bahai with the Wannabbie PretIndian deluded dufus dissociative identity disorder of my Dad following a proclivity towards a woman way too young and with WHOSE relationship with Dad was suspiciously a little more akin to the “oldest profession” to secure a business relationship with Pete L. Mesteth, for Dad.

Words cannot describe the depths of Irony and stark contrast of discovering my mother resembling Mildred Cleghorn in “Geronimo and the Apache Resistance”  in mannerisms proclaiming “We had Moral Standards that were very Strong, but they Called us Savages”  and the ones in total Stockholm syndrome in guise of some fraud form trickled down verison of Oglala Lakota Spirituality.  Pete Mesteth shit on some of the Principles taught by Martin High Bear by conning and exploiting dumbfucking libtard Whities however stupid and gullible and desperate they may have been.  Everyone knows it.

The Apache Sunrise ceremony and the kind of suppressed religion such ceremonies reptesent that powers that should not be wanted to destroy is a brilliant coming of age Ceremony totally and epically flawlessly in harmony with these words from Baha’u’llah.

 

 

I have good reason to suspect my mother was telling the truth when she told me her Grandfather, my great biological grandfather is Apache of some Southwestern Band.

Often  in history Women have been the pride of humanity — for example, Mary, the mother of Jesus. She was the glory of mankind. Mary Magdalene, Asiyih, daughter of Pharaoh, Sarah, wife of Abraham, and innumerable others have glorified the human race by their excellences. In this day there are women among the Bahá’ís who far outshine men. They are wise, talented, well-informed, progressive, most intelligent and the light of men. They surpass men in courage. When they speak in meetings, the men listen with great respect. Furthermore, the education of women is of greater importance than the education of men, for they are the mothers of the race, and mothers rear the children. The first teachers of children are the mothers. Therefore, they must be capably trained in order to educate both sons and daughters. There are many provisions in the words of Bahá’u’lláh in regard to this.

 

            (Abdu’l-Baha, The Promulgation of Universal Peace, p. 174)

I have good reason to suspect my mother was telling the truth when she told me her Grandfather, my great biological grandfather is Apache of some Southwestern Band.

With such a Great Spiritual Warrior society of these Apache people defending their sacred lands against both the United States Government and for 500 years prior:  the hoard of Spanish Conquistador Stockholm syndrome Mestizo Mexicans who succumbed to the cruelty of the gay pedophile Roman Catholic Church inquisition, and all the detritus that their sick fucking Drug Cartels perpetrate against women in places like Ciudad Juarez today

 

and all that fraud Christianity that it entails, with these Roman Catholic Clergy

 

molesting little boys and girls for eons, and considering the ghetto unsustainable squalor slum of somewhere in Denver Colorado in 19^th of December 1948, where my mother was born into in that environment of Spaniard Conquistador stockholm syndrome.  Reservation full blooded Indians who want to silence me like the one who told me to shutup, do not know the depths of Trauma of my Mother.

WHAT COULD BE more shameful that Bahais would be so arrogant as to consider that some of the most brilliant Bahai principles (educating& protect children) are original to “Bahais” and are practiced exclusively owned by “Bahais” and that the world revolves around rescuing Bahais from Iran as THOUGH the Persian Bahais were the Most Holiest Spiritual people in the world “Holier than Thou” by virtue of being Bahai refugees from Iran?     Does any Bahai nowadays forget the Great Voyages that Amatu’l-Baha Ruhhiyyah Khanun did garnering the utmost respect from Indigineous people of South and North America?

The documentary  “Geronimo and the Apache Resistance” and several documentaries on the “Apache Sunrise Ceremony” and considering how the United States Govenrment committed Holocaust and Genocide on those peoples exiled as P.O.W.’s , with their children put in horribly cruel Boarding Schools.   Isn’t this PERSECUTION and the multigenerational Trauma,  just a little bit reminiscent of all the woes of the Great Bahai Holy Family of Baha’u’llah’s exiles?.  Their suffering deserves a special amount of respect and is the story that helps me forgive my mother more than anyone else who was cruel to me in the entire world and in my entire lif

You Bahais who advocate that the Iranian Government is so horrible to Bahai Persians, yet live Posh Opulant lifestyles as success stories here in the USA and Canada thriving,   Why would the cruel dominant societies of North America  that persecute American Indians be any worse than the Islamic terrorism done to Bahais considering the depths of cruelty done to these Spiritual Warrior people’s ways?

Its damn shame my father could never appreciate that part of my Mother’s claimed heritage adequately

and never  bothered to learn much about Apache culture instead of blindly following Pete L. Mesteth’s  brand of jarhead philandering bullshit half wit watered down Oglala Lakota spirituality?  Its as though the unconscious shame of my father failing to satisfy my mother’s insatiable demand to be respected for her true heritage was exploited by Pete L. Mesteth’s insatiable demand for his Oglala Lakota people’s heritage to be respected and have duly noted the coincidence of 19th of December being Pete’s birthday and my mother’s.  Sagittarius = another similiarity to the  archetype of “Crazy Horse” perhaps? .       Even if Apache culture is not my mother’s true heritage.   I AM  disgusted by the likes of all PretenIndians and Whities claiming heritage unproven and am entirely open to the possibility my mother is really not American indian hardlt at all and just a 99% Spanish mestizo Stockholm syndrome travesty  descended Coloradan from way before the Mexican American war. AND that my mother  was as deluded as my father wrongfully claiming Apache identity .      My mother seeing Apache People’s spirituality, Geronimo as a father figure,  loving and respecting their youth and children was a great beautiful Prayer to remedy her broken heart and was  an antidote to the horrors my Mother claims she experienced from being adopted and tortured and shattered into MK ultra  /Monarch mind controlled level of abuse locked in basement for days by a psychopathic wicked step mother along with whatever Godforsaken ghetto environment she grew up in in Denver between 1948 and 1957 with a story of a brother of hers, witnessing a biological Uncle I never knew getting beaten with a rubber garden hose.  Something damaged her to deny and ignore and dissociate from abuse that was being done to me.  Tje red flags of Keith Ronald Moore and Matthew Gordon Field ‘s creepy predeliction and their bizarre parents should have been obvious to a true Bahai community not so with the #fakebahais where I was raised.

DOES ANYONE OF YOU BAHAIS READING THIS FAR in the entire fucking world think MAYBE the Bush-Billary Clinton crime syndicate with Prescott Bush stealing and robbing and collecting Geronimo’s Skull and perpetrating other horrible disrespect onto American Indian Spiritually is a FORM of tyranny at least as bad as Islamic extremist terrorists persecuting Bahais in Iran? tormenting Bahais in Iran and other corrupt Islamic shithole countries?

 

All the disgusting gay pedophile pedocidal psychopathy that goes with that Skull and Bones Cult

just might be as Wicked and disgusting as fraud Islamic molestors of little boys with Bachi Bazi sickness in Iran and Afghanistan?

Its very disturbing to me the twisted heart string pulling pity that’s played people to mistake someone else’s injustice for selfish personal opportunity and someone else’s kindness for dumbness all the while tormenting Bahais in Iran and other corrupt Islamic “shithole” countries? https://youtu.be/rXszWgrSHNo

(The prison where Baha’u’llah was put in Iran chia sha “Black pit” was a shithole)

 

 

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You must give great importance to teaching the Indians, i e., the aborigines of America. For these souls are like the ancient inhabitants of Peninsular Arabia, who previous to the Manifestation  529  of His Holiness Muhammad were treated as savages. But when the Muhammadic light shone forth in their midst, they became so illumined that they brightened the world. Likewise, should these Indians and aborigines be educated and obtain guidance, there is no doubt that through the divine teachings, they will become so enlightened as in turn to shed light to all regions.

 

            (Compilations, Baha’i Scriptures, p. 528)