I do not feel suicidal.
MAIN LINK started May 2022 CORE STATEMENTS https://bahaipdxwitness1984.wordpress.com/2022/04/28/final-links-with-core-statements/
and charming meme collages that have full resolution in big 6000 x 5000 + pixel resolution:
+ BIG QUOTE and its context to the Tragedy of a pedophile enabling Bahai community:
Below is a big quote where Shoghi Effendi kind of answers my own Statements and concerns. IMHO Shoghi Effendi seems to be telling American Bahais to not only refrain from being conceited about their nationality race or family background, but also refrain from tolerating blind fawning and groveling to
both charismatic predators of wealthy backgrounds
and blind fawning groveling to historically wrongfully oppressed ethnic groups.
And retain a certain healthy suspicion despite of all the Bahai laws against “fault finding” and “backbiting”.
And mostly I suppose Shoghi Effendi certainly would include those great eloquent affluent Iranian refugees immigrants settled and living in the United States and Canada from the Great Lands of Baha’u’llah and great survival from horrible persecution (those Islamic Middle Eastern Countries).
MONA’S STORY: ANGELS OF IRAN
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TPI1wCDDvDs&t deserves a righteous JUXTOPOSITION with the suffering described in documentary of my own mother’s alleged heritage, since banned on youtube again https://shop.pbs.org/WA9552.html
along with any number of a spiritual societies that won’t allow their women and girls to be humiliated SO THAT the better pure good qualities my mother undoubtedly has COULD HAVE BEEN DEVELOPED LIKE HER ANCESTORS FREE OF THE VICIOUS HOARDE OF MESTIZO ROMAN CATHOLIC PEDOPHILE CONQUISTADOR CULTURE FROM MEXICO! and Later the United States’s own genocidal Boarding School policy!:
APACHE SUNRISE CEREMONY
“‘Abdu’l-Bahá laid great stress on Education. He said “The girl’s education is of more importance today than the boy’s, for she is the mother of the future race. It is the duty of all to look after the children. Those without children should, if possible, make themselves responsible for the education of a child.”
(Abdu’l-Baha, Abdu’l-Baha in London, p. 91)”
https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=apache+sunrise+ceremony
https://archive.org/details/GeronimoandtheApacheResistance
, because it was a Persian Bahai refugee woman who upon reading the whistle blowing testimony from me of my mother’s criminal negligence failing to protect me (as a child) from being molested by Krampus (Keith Ronald Moore d.o.b. 01-04-1967) and Matthew Gordon Field (08-17or18-1969) during her sordid shameless affair iin 1982 she had with Matt’s dad George Edwin Field (d.o.b. 11-08-1943) to the Local Assembly in Corvallis in 2003, Oregon where I was living in 2003 who said to me all misty eyed like this Persian Bahai refugee woman here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TPI1wCDDvDs&t=109s
“she didn’t know!”
“she didn’t know!”
“she didn’t know!”
“she didn’t know!”
“she didn’t know!“
How would she know my mother didn’t know!!!?
Perhaps MAYBE “SHE DIDN’T KNOW” because Persian Bahai Refugee Women UNDESERSTAND. IT WAS as though these Bahai refugee women from Iran are no stranger to having non-Bahai women friends and family crack under extreme stockholm syndrome MK-ULTRA TRAUMA BASED MIND CONTROL from TORTURE? https://www.rt.com/news/509440-iran-angelina-corpse-bride-jailed/ AS though Persian Bahai refugee know all too well their non-bahai Iranian cousin women are often tortured as girls who as adults shape shift into that wicked cruel heartless slut gladly taking cock from tyrannical Islamic Terrorist men, think nothing of selling their sons out to gay pedophiles in “Bachi Bazi”, and wear the burqa (like some women love our Covid Masks now to hide themselves in public now to go-along-to-get along like duped trained overgrown little girls)? and run with wolves leading to these women from Muslim Terrorists countries obviously being afflicted with:
Hybristophilia https://owlcation.com/social-sciences/psyhparaphilia
Hybristophiliacs are people who are sexually aroused and attracted to people who have committed cruel, gruesome crimes such as murder and rape. It occurs more often in women than in men.
and seek out Pedophile enabling boyfriends https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=bachi+bazi :
https://archive.org/details/bloodlines_illuminati
What an odd stark Contrast between my mother and this Elder Apache Woman Mildred Cleghorn and some of the reasons why my mother might’ve turned into such a wicked heartless slut shortly after she dumped my father? :
Shoghi Effendi might also be considering all the tear jerking victim status hubris and conceit about any 1 particular nationality’s , race, or family background like we see white liberals doing today for certain blacks tolerating rampant violence and looting in the name of “peaceful protests” today, while simultaneously certain cocoanut house negro oreos
Malcolm X explians the “house Negro” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=98Jmw5o9ulA
still love the worst crooked white politicians 
https://anticonformityrage.blogspot.com/2020/08/open-season-on-libtards-101.html
and are proud of their free masons house negros privileges with these 2 celebrity Bahais flippantly talking of and tolerating her free mason privileges https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eswYkJNloME&t=86s “My father was a mason” “of course I can’t tell you much or I’d have to kill yOU” : 
Shoghi Effendi explains The “Manifestation of God” originates near and for those who are the most troubled people on earth Quote-ing Advent of Divine Justice: starting page 16. In my case my young parents when they desperately arrived in Oregon from Ohio in 1977 through well into the 1990’s, had blind fawning groveling overzealous extreme gullibility, naivity, and stupidity to affluent eloquent wealthy Persian immigrants along with wealthy Whites (such as Dean & Alice Moore, and good old great granddaughters of “Howard Colby Ives” and Holocaust refugee Eric Reich whose daughters complicit in the unfolding step parent families (Erica Toussaint & Ann Blair) https://bahaipdxwitness1984.wordpress.com/2020/02/23/bahaipdxwitness1984-files-wordpress-com-annotated-transcript-family-life-marriage-and-relationships-and-childhood-education-a-talk-by-erica-toussaint-brockworkingcopywithnotes-pdf/ That blind fawning extended to bleeding hearts toward other minorities suffering: especially the twisted fawning towards American Indian Spiritualists ( in the case of my Dad especially https://bahaipdxwitness1984.wordpress.com/2020/02/28/legacy-of-palfeace-wannabie-pretendindian-dumbfuckery/
) as he was indifferent to bothering to go and learn my Mother’s claims of Apache heritage, and he was indifferent to his own criminal negligence of children he inflicted on me through ignoring child abuse and leaving me alone with pedophile older guys. https://bahaipdxwitness1984.wordpress.com/2020/05/25/ok-keith-revision-005/
Borrowing Shoghi Effendi’s words & rhetoric as a statement of the #fakebahai community where I was raised:
The glowing tributes, so repeatedly and deservedly paid to the capacity, the spirit, the conduct, and the high rank, of ” a lot of materially charismatic successful refugees from difficult circumstances including some historically oppressed American Indians
, both individually and as an organic community, WAS MOST DEFINITELY WHERE I GREW UP AS A CHILD AND YOUTH absolutely confounded with the characteristics and nature of the peoples from which God [barely had began] to raise them up!
Here’s the full quotation by Shoghi Effendi
https://www.bahai.org/library/authoritative-texts/shoghi-effendi/advent-divine-justice/
” To contend that the innate worthiness, the high moral standard, the political aptitude, and social attainments of any race or nation is the reason for the appearance in its midst of any of these Divine Luminaries would be an absolute perversion of historical facts, and would amount to a complete repudiation of the undoubted interpretation placed upon them, so clearly and emphatically, by both Bahá’u’lláh and ‘Abdu’l-Bahá.” Starting page 16 through 17 for the full passage: “The glowing tributes, so repeatedly and deservedly paid to the capacity, the spirit, the conduct, and the high rank, of the American believers, both individually and as an organic community, must, under no circumstances, be confounded with the characteristics and nature of the people from which God has raised them up. A sharp distinction between that community and that people must be made, and resolutely and fearlessly upheld, if we wish to give due recognition to the transmuting power of the Faith of Bahá’u’lláh, in its impact on the lives and standards of those who have chosen to enlist under His banner. Otherwise, the supreme and distinguishing function of His Revelation, which is none other than the calling into being of a new race of men, will remain wholly unrecognized and completely obscured. 17 How often have the Prophets of God, not excepting Bahá’u’lláh Himself, chosen to appear, and deliver their Message in countries and amidst peoples and races, at a time when they were either fast declining, or had already touched the lowest depths of moral and spiritual degradation. The appalling misery and wretchedness to which the Israelites had sunk, under the debasing and tyrannical rule of the Pharaohs, in the days preceding their exodus from Egypt under the leadership of Moses; the decline that had set in in the religious, the spiritual, the cultural, and the moral life of the Jewish people, at the time of the appearance of Jesus Christ; the barbarous cruelty, the gross idolatry and immorality, which had for so long been the most distressing features of the tribes of Arabia and brought such shame upon them when Muhammad arose to proclaim His Message in their midst; the indescribable state of decadence, with its attendant corruption, confusion, intolerance, and oppression, in both the civil and religious life of Persia, so graphically portrayed by the pen of a considerable number of scholars, diplomats, and travelers, at the hour of the Revelation of Bahá’u’lláh — all demonstrate this basic and inescapable fact. To contend that the innate worthiness, the high moral standard, the political aptitude, and social attainments of any race or nation is the reason for the appearance in its midst of any of these Divine Luminaries would be an absolute perversion of historical facts, and would amount to a complete repudiation of the undoubted interpretation placed upon them, so clearly and emphatically, by both Bahá’u’lláh and ‘Abdu’l-Bahá. (Shoghi Effendi, The Advent of Divine Justice, p. 16)
Some factions of Free Masonry conflated with Satanism and Aleister Crowley’s worst statements JUXTAPOSED WITH this “A CRY FROM THE HEART” cover by Hand of the Cause of God William Sears & Baha’u’llah completely AGAINST PEDOPHILIA :
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